Life and all its amusements.

Just another day in paradise

2006-06-06T12:46:00.000-07:00

I dont get on here much anymore, but then considering I barely have time to breathe...actually I have finally gotten to where my day isnt hectic, for the past two weeks I have had five kids, two of them were toddlers, and I cared for them alone. Now I am down to three and it is so much easier. At least now I know what it feels like to sit down, you know the saying work your butt off, I finally see where it comes from, I have lost 32 Ibs just working, course my work entails chasing after a bunch of active kids who not a one of them are over the age of 6. And speaking of 6 to my joy and sorrow my own daughter will be 6 the 10th, I realize suddenly what my mom meant when she told me she didnt feel old on her birthdays, she felt old on mine. I can not believe my baby is turning 6 she will be going into first grade in august and it breaks my heart, I am lucky though to be allowed to help raise my new adopted sister Audra, who is a perfect addition to my family. So here I am looking at 26 years old I like to think I have finally grown up, but then my mom gives me that mother look and I suddenly feel like I am 9 again and I snuck a cookie. Life is good and if you cant stop to enjoy it from time to time then you are doomed to be one sad soul. There are times when I forget to smell the roses. But then those same kids that just a few minutes ago made me want to look for a new job remind me that I need to laugh, and take a second look at that worm that I would rather avoid. For me, each day no matter if I am in here at home in Canon City, or visiting someone on a tropical island It is "Just another day in paradise"

The True? Easter?

2006-04-17T08:07:00.000-07:00

Colored eggs, chocolate bunnies, malt eggs, family dinner. When asked what I think of easter these are the immediate things that come to mind. Why, because I just spent an easter with six kids. Six easter baskets, six dozen eggs. (we used plastic eggs. Very good idea btw) It was exhausting but oh so worth it. Especially when after the egg hunt when the day was coming to an end I was able to sit down with my own daughter and talk to her about the true meaning of easter. It isnt about a giant bunny that gives treats. It isnt about the treats in general its about Jesus, rising after being crucified. To give us hope. After we talked I was able to put on VeggieTales Easter Carole. They are great for teaching kids about God. Then as I watched it with her I realized forget kids they are great for teaching us adults too. In the Easter Carole there is a little character called Hope, she is supposed to help another of the characters learn about the true meaning of Easter. In the end she sings this song that trully opened my eyes and touched me. So I thought what a better place to put them then here.
Theres a story that started on Christmas.
When a baby was born in the night
And those who came far, who followed the star
Were seeing a heavenly sight ...a heavenly sight.
Well the years hurried by, and the boy, now a man
Could make the blind see with a touch of his hand
He was born to be King -- he was Rabbi and Priest
But the best that he had, he gave to the least
...He gave to the least.

He was born and he died, almost 2,000 years ago
He laughed and he cried, he felt all the fears we know
But what does it matter?
A story so strange
...Even if it is true, what does it change?
What does it change?

Well he spoke like a prophet -- like no one theyd heard
This simple young carpenter -- crowds hung on every word
He hated injustice -- He taught what is right
He said Im the way, and the truth, and the light.
His friends soon believed that truly he was the one.
The Savior, Messiah, s one and only son.
But others, they doubted, they did not agree
So they took him, they tried him,He died on a tree
...He died on a tree.

God has made a wayfor all who mourn and grieve
Death will never be the end if you just believe.
There is nothing left to fear nothing
Heaven knows For he died for us to give us life and to give us hope He rose
He died for us to give us life
And to give us hope He rose.

Internet Relationships

2006-04-11T07:06:00.000-07:00

Several times in the past 10 years I have met guys online. Then we meet in person and I am so completely disapointed. I dont understand why they think it is intelligent to like online when they intend to meet you in person. Do they think me so stupid that I wont notice that they said they are six feet tall yet when I meet them in person their head comes to my shoulder? I mean not that looks are important but I dislike lying, and if they cant tell me the truth about a simple thing like height what else will they lie about. Yet I must be a glutton for punishment as once again I have met someone that I really like. I have seen pictures we have talked. Online and over the phone and he is talking about meeting me. Suddenly I am worried, am I going to find myself disappointed yet again? Should I give up on this whole online dating as my mother would prefer. I am of the newer generation where I look at things in a different light. What is the difference between meeting a guy online and meeting him in the bar. Sure online they can lie about everything including there looks. But in person cant they lie just as well. My family apparently believes that if I meet them in person then maybe they will be wearing a sign with big bold letters saying I am a serial rapist and killer. I try to tell her that I wouldnt know no matter where I look. I guess it sounds like I am for online and long distance relationships. But trully I am in the air about it. I am sure someone out there is thinking why not meet a nice gentleman from your church......and to that. Heh in my church there are no gentleman my age. If they are my age they are married. Or soon to be married. Anyhow, I guess what it boils down to is though they may not work. In todays day and age it is just another form of dating, like meeting in a bar, or at a church social or whatever. It just starts as words which I have always believed far more powerful then actions.

You might be old if.....

2006-04-10T07:56:00.000-07:00

I at one time or another have read a book by Jeff Foxworthy (The you might be a redneck guy) Where he added in the back. You might be old if. I found myself nodding and agreeing to half the things he had in there that claimed you might be old if you thought, did or otherwise had been a part of. Then I got to thinking,..dang I am only 26,...I claim the whol old soul thing. Well since reading that I have compiled some added things that I have seen and done myself that just makes me groan and say lord I am getting old.
You might be old if.......
~Your child asks you how to turn on an etch a sketch. (if you dont know what an etch a sketch is,..your not old)
~You wake up in the morning and your, knee, back "and" hip all pop with the first stretch.
~ You go to wal-mart and the cashier thinks your 22 year old sister is your teenage daughter.
~ You spend all Sunday doing housework
~ You are only excited that Friday is here because you will finally be able to finish up the laundry.
~ Anyone under 18 thinks your uncool for any reason. (had to add this as the 11 year old I am taking care of on occasion informed me that since I wouldnt take him four wheeling in my Grand Am I was uncool)
~ If you have ever,..and I do mean ever started any sort of sentance, story or retelling with "When I was your age."
~ You have a 9 month old sister and people refuse to believe she is your sister and not your own child.
~ You actually stop carrying about impressing the other sex. "Hey if he dont like me how I am then he can leave."
~When men of your own age actually start liking woman older then 21
~When men younger then you actually start looking better then men your own age
And last but not least as I am sure you all out there could come up with a hundred more.
You might be old if your kids hears about the Rolling Stones and asks what a couple of rocks rolling down a hill has to do with music.

Brady Bunch Shmady Bunch

2006-04-09T16:21:00.000-07:00

I remember the show Brady Bunch,..who doesn't that is over 21 right. I used to think wow what a great thing to have such a big family, all those people in the house. I now see it must have been insane. Within the lasat two weeks my mothers house (Which I spend more time at then my own since I work there.) Has gone from a three person home to a ten person home. Ten people in a four bedroom two bath house. Imagine that if you can, and if you cant, your lucky, cause I dont have to just imagine it I live with it eight to ten hours a day. My parents who god bless them, (cause everyone else thinks there crazy as a loon.) Went into the foster/adopt program. They have been taking on foster kids for some time. I probably have mentioned them in past blogs. They got the option to adopt a 7 month old little girl. They accepted and she is now 9 months and the life of the house. At 26 it is quite odd to have a 9 month old sister but heck I am all for it. I love her like she was blood. Ok so now my parents have her, and of course there is my daughter who is five who they adore being there granddaughter. She finds it hightly strange to have an aunt younger then her. So anyhow moving on. A month after getting the little girl DHS (Department of Human Services) Calls and asks my parents to take on three siblings. 11, 5, and 4. They say,..to the astonishment of everyone,..myself inculded considering I am there day care 'yes' poof a three person home goes to a six person home. Now I am thinking that I am quite glad I live in my own place when it gets better, (or worse depending on your view) my sister from California calls and she is moving back with her own daughter, a friend and boyfriend. They have no place to live so guess what my wonderful mother says.....(I am sure at least 90% of anyone that reads this guessed) thats right she said you can stay with me. Bringing four more people into her home...Making it a grand total of ten. To say that when I am not working at her home I am hiding at mine. So I say with great relish Brady Bunch Shmady Bunch,..they only had eight including the house keeper. I would say that my family has them beat.

(On a side note I am highly proud and love my parents to have the patience and ability to take in trouble kids that need homes for short times. I hope god continues to bless them for at least a hundred more years)

Power to the Plus Size

2006-01-30T09:15:00.000-08:00

My sister who lives in California is a size 12 and nearly became a plus size model. I was so happy for her till I learned that she got downed by some calvin klein model who was a size negative one. So nowI shall get on my soap box (and since this is my blog I can ~diabolical laugh~) Why would you want to look at something that has no curves no nothing infact they are so skinny you can see there heart beating. I mean what happened to the days when girls with curves were considered beautiful. I thought I was rather up to date but apparently not. I am a plus size girl myself and though I wouldnt mind loosing a pound or two I wouldnt change that much. I have hips I have breasts. (hope no one gets insulted by me using breasts here,..oops used it twice heehee) I refuse to see myself as frumpy, or fat just because I happen to be a size 16 yes,..~gasps~ I a woman have told her size in a relatively public domain and my goodness here is a second no no I am 25 nearly 26,..age and weight told here. Heck who cares I am proud of who I am, of the way I look. If the men in this world want a bunch of stick figures then go get em boys. I would just as soon be happy, healthy and bigger then a size three "alone" then eating celery and obsesing over everything I put in my mouth. Give me a bowl of ice cream. And if you dont like it,....well as the song goes, "you can kiss,...this."

Beauty and the Beast

2006-01-23T07:45:00.000-08:00

Very few people have not seen the disney classic Beauty and the Beast. Personally it is my favorite, both cartoon and love story. I mean really, beast gets the girl lives happily ever after. Ahh,.to bad life isnt that wonderful. Just once I would like to get the guy beast or not. This would be my 'I am lonely' post. You ever just find yourself sitting on the couch thinking, oh man this is it. This is what I will be doing 20 years from now. I am 25 and I am borrrrriiinnngggg. I wonder if mail order grooms are available. I normally dont have a problem with being with just me and my daughter. But every once in a blue moon. (yes I know there is no blue moon this month.) Even I think, it might be nice to have someone. But then I gain my senses back and give a loud sigh that another Lonely Moment has passed and I am ready to face the world once again, bright eyed and bushy tailed. Still especially with Valentines coming on the month of Febuary is always a rather bummer of a month. Its times like this that I fall back on friends and family and whimper and pout and give them big puppy dog eyes and say,...............I need a hug,..and,....some,..CHOCOLATE!!!!!

Super Baby and Super Girl

2006-01-10T08:12:00.000-08:00

As I booted up my computer to get online the two little girls that I care for came over with blankets and lace, after several failed attempts we tied the blankets around them, and made the lace into a crown. The oldest then found a pretty hat and it was like a transformation for no longer did I have My two little angels I had,.........Super Baby and Super Girl, at least that is what I was in informed by the eldest in a rather interesting tone that sounded supspicioiusly like a british accent. I couldnt help laughing as suddenly the dogs had to be save, the stuffed animals were in danger and would then be rescued and indeed yes even me from the dreaded clutches of whatever neferious evil doer had come my way. As they went about there make believe play I relized what neferious evil doer had come my way, it is age. I couldnt even remember the last time I put on a blanket for a cape and ran around saving my own little world. Perhaps the world would be a much better place if we adults would lighten up, put on a blanket and pretend to save the world. We get too serious forget to take time, to just spend time wondering what if. As I end this I believe I will grab my own cape and battle with age itself, that wicked bad guy. And you know what they say,. When it comes to super heros. The good guys always win.

These are a few of my favorite things......

2006-01-05T15:27:00.000-08:00

A new year is upon us and I am still broke,. Just kidding. I was humming songs to the 4 week old baby that I care for now and suddenly I realized I was humming the song from the Sound of Music. These are a few of my favorite things. Then I started thinking, what are my favorite things. Alot of 'things' came to mind. And since this happens to be a blog that is all about me speaking my mind your all in for it. And here it goes. These are a few of 'MY' favorite things: In no particular order
1. A childs laughter
2. The smile of an infant
3. The smell of roses
4. 'I love you' from my daughter
5. My cat curled up against me on a cold night.
6. My good friend Miss Grail ^_~
7. My Family
8. God
9. Friends in general who make you laugh when you fee like crying
10. Disney movies where love always wins out in the end.
11. Puppies and kittens
12. Hot Coffee on a snowy day
13. Snow Angels made by giggling little girls.
14. Sunsets
15. Sunrises
16. Hugs
17. Chocolate
18. I good book
19. An hour soaking in the tub
20. Online Role Playing
There are hundreds more I can think of. But this twenty is the first ones that come to mind. Now how about some feed back what are your favorite things. Gail you deffinatly have to answer.

And a Happy New Year.....

2006-01-01T08:29:00.000-08:00

I wonder if anyone ever looks back on New Years Day and thinks good grief thank God its over. I believe I am feeling that way. Which is odd to say the less usually I look back and say, nu uh its a new year man I am getting old. But this year I looked back and all I could think was new year, new chance. I have so many resolutions. I doubt I will keep any of them. But the fact is I am going to try pretty hard. My family tells me making resolutions is useless no one keeps them. Well I am just stubborn enough to keep them just to say. NA NA NA NA BOO BOO, ah reverting back to child hood feels so good. Yesterday at sabbath school, aka church, yes I go on Saturdays. Our teacher asked us to right down five accomplishments you feel you made in 2005. I sat there mouth open because I could not think of a one. But then it seemed to hit me, I had more then I thought. So then I figured why not share them here. Not like anyone reads this. So here goes. 1. Me and my sister got a new Apartment together
2. I turned a quarter of a century old (25)
3. I got to leave the country (my first time)
4. I got a new job and realized it was not for me and went back to what I trully like doing
5. I met a wonderful woman who is now a good friend.

Then of course on the flip side of the coin he asked what do we want to do for the next year. There was no uhhhhh dun know for that the list was supposed to be three but I know my list would have been at least 50. Still dont be sad I wont share them here some of them are pretty personal. Anyhow its Sunday New Years Day or not and I need to get to cleaning my house. But you might want to try what I did above just five things you feel you accomplished in the year 2005. It might open your eyes, and if not make you feel a little better about last year as well as the new year, make it seem as if things are completely useless.

Christmas or Xmas

2005-12-22T08:54:00.000-08:00

This time of the year always gives me mixed emotions, I hate the croweds, the short tempers, the need to find just the right gift for all the people on your list. Up until five years ago I could have just forgotten all about Christmas and been happy yep one of those people who wrote it Xmas alot of people are in such a hurry now a days that knowing Christ gets in there way, so it only makes sense to X him out of the most important day of the year the day we celebrate his birthday. I am quite guilty of doing it myself a time or two. But five years ago I had a child and it changed alot of things about me but the number one thing it changed was how I veiwed the world. She is still innocent and looks at the world differently then we do. A few days ago I was at walmart as everyone knows walmart no matter what city or state you are in this time of the year is insane. We were shoving through the crowds trying to get those last minute things when I notice my daughter isnt holding onto me anymore. Ah the sheer panic of a mother in a very crowded store. I nearly went insane for the whole 3 minutes I couldnt find her. Then I saw her in one of the isles farther down the line,I ran over and told her I was going to spank her for leaving my side. She looks up at me with tears in her eyes and said, "but mommy I was just getting a birthday present for Jesus" Talk about knocking the wind out of your anger. I then realized something very important. Gifts are nice to get on Christmas, they are nice to give to especially to our children the look of joy on their faces are beyond describable but how many of us would stop to think about getting Jesus a birthday present.
I know I for one had completely forgotten. It gave me a change of attitude and I finished the day with a prayer that God help me remember what is important this time of the year. So I guess that final question you have to ask your self is are you celebrating Christmas,.....or Xmas?

Life and Death

2005-12-20T06:57:00.000-08:00

Life and death is strange. That may seem like an odd way to start this but trully think about it. The way one lives his or her life will effect their death in many ways. Whether they will go to heaven, if they will be remebered for good or bad, if they will be mourned. The way that person is seen varies as well. I recently went to a funeral of a man that I never believed did any good in life. But as I sat in the full church and listened to people speaking about his life I felt myself at first confused, then angry, why had I not seen this person they spoke of I had only seen the bad, in the end I cried because though others had been allowed to see this wonderful side of him, I had not seen anything but nastiness from him. But it was good that I had seen the good side and though my initial memories of him will not be all that great, the over all has been changed. I can now see that he had some redeeming qualities and I know longer hate him as I had before. Life and death it is a strange length of a humans life. You may live your life showing some one side and others another but when you die all your skeletons come out and maybe just maybe when these skeletons are exposed the people who thought only bad of you will understand or if not understand accept that you had your reasons. I suppose in the long run this made me see and realize one important thing. I want to live my life and treat everyone the same so that when it was my time to go I will not have conflicting emotions thought about me. The question then becomes how do you live your life?

Loving CS Lewis

2005-12-15T21:38:00.000-08:00

I just got back from watching The Chronicals of Narnia The Lion The Witch and the Wardrobe, I loved it even after reading the entire chronicle of narnia series the movie just sort of adds color. Though missing large parts of the book and some things added as is with most books made movies it was good. I couldnt help though wondering while sitting freezing to death in the theatre, aside from the normal thought why dont theatres ever use heaters. How many people there had read the books, and how many were watching totally confused. I am not a bible thumping religious freak but I believe in christ and go to church regularly, I am curious to know how many people realize the religious conatations of Narnia. Eh who knows. Anyhow, tomorrow is my last day at the day care I work at and though I know I should feel a bit of sadness over leaving the only depression I have is that I will not get to see two people and a few of the kids. At least I will get to see my Gail since we talk outside of work but the other adult there I will probably never see her again. Nor the kids that I will miss, but I think that it is a sad state of affairs that after three months that is all I will miss about the place. Guess that goes to show the lack the place had, or maybe I am the one lacking. But trully I will still be doing what I love and that is taking care of children but in my own home. Well I guess I am off to bed to dream.

The First......

2005-12-14T08:50:00.000-08:00

Well here it goes an attempt at this whole blog thing. Thank you Gail since you will probably be the only one reading this but you got me interested. For my reasoning I guess I liked the idea of someplace online where I can type out how I feel get it out of my system and then move on. Maybe some people will read it maybe they wont. Either or the fact of the matter is that I will have written or rather typed what needed to be said and can leave it be. So here is the beginning post. Lets see how it goes from here.